What I wish I could say.

[missanthropicprinciple]

I have C-PTSD, i.e. Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder caused by long-term exposure to traumatic experiences. It is not a mental illness, it is psychological injury. While I am a high-functioning individual, I do exhibit some symptoms that can be observed. Please be aware of the following: 1) I suffer from short-term memory loss inconsistently and there may be instances where I do need to ask for specific information to be repeated. Short term memory loss does not mean that I am not listening or do not care. 2) Sometimes I am unable to make eye contact. Please do not lean down or follow my gaze in an attempt to force me to make eye contact. This is rude and unhelpful. I am awareI am able to look you in the eye and after a few moments I will be able to resume and maintain eye contact. 3) I sometimes have difficulty with word recall. This means that I may be stuck, unable to find the appropriate word needed in verbal communication. Please do not draw attention to this. I will navigate the situation accordingly. 4) Depending on my level of exhaustion, I sometimes “misspeak” by using spoonerisms and other speech errors. For example, I often transpose morphemes (word parts), as well as transposing words within sentences, or using the opposite of the word I intend to say (eg. Cold instead of hot). 5) Please remember that I have little control over these symptoms and to approach this with respect. Please do not correct my verbal mistakes. Clarification should be done so respectfully. Do not use belittling or patronizing language or tone. This is not helpful or kind. Remember that I am a mature adult with many years of higher education and work experience. Please do not assume I need help, give me help without asking, or give unsolicited advice. I have a psychiatrist and have been managing my symptoms for many years. Remember that my mental symptoms are unconnected to my intelligence or capacity to work. Do not diminish my feelings or make assumptions about my feelings. I cannot “overcome” my symptoms but be assured that I work hard to minimize symptoms when I can.