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[missanthropicprinciple]

While things still continue to be trying, my annotated bibliography has been submitted and David agreed to be on my review committee. He said he would be "most honored" to serve on my committee which makes me more happy than I can say. Still waiting to hear back from another professor. I've been drained and dissociative and during a conversation at work with a friend on Monday, I forgot who I was for a half a second. I feel incredibly lost. My friends have not been there for me emotionally, save Blithe and Melissa. But they've been busy too. I desperately want a partner but feel unworthy, nor have I met any men who were people I could count on to be my equal. And I hear wait and patience and things like that and Mom says "when you leave that place" I'll meet someone. But I'm alone now when I really need someone. Waiting more years than I have been is insulting. So heaven knows how I will find someone. In any case, some things are settling down at least and I've gotten more hours from work.